MEN.....???

I wonder why the only thing that guys want to do is fuck....??

Well to make a long story short, my mother is trying to hook me up with this guys....WTF?? I just got out of this 1yr relationship and Im really not ready to move on that fast. Im not even gonna lie I do still love him but I can't be with him.

Anywhoo, this guy is totally not my type, and the only reason why I'm talking to him is because he is helping to remodel my mother house. Well he called last night and we talked for a good lil min, longer than normal. Well the convo was going good until he started asking me all these personal questions (and yall know what kind of questions im talking about). So my silly ass, sittn here entertaining him. So this nigga talking bout come over so he can munch on my pumpum....
......LOL.....??? WTF is a pumpum?.....

And from there I lost kind of respect for him. Like dude we just started talking and you want me to fuck you...? And on top of that I just told you, I think all guys are hoe until that one guy comes and prove me differently. So, WOW today I had to go to my mom house to let them in so they could change the back doors in the house. And he's like can I come sit with you, and Im like NO, don't you have work to do??He was like I just want to come sit by you and talk. So I kinda brushed his ass off.... Im like wtf... dude last night was our first time that we actually sat down and had a convosation with each other. You are just like thae rest of em'.

Niggas these days.

Even though I havent had sex in a while b/c Im tryn to hold out until I get into a relationship b/c I know how my feelns are.

ONE

Quote of the day.....

Inspiring Quote of the Day:
Quality is never an accident; it is always the result of high
intention, sincere effort, intelligent direction and skillful
execution; it represents the wise choice of many alternatives
- William A Foster

So HAPPY....

to be single.....
to be stressed free.....
to be on my own again....
to be educated....
to be employed(BLESSED)......
to be talented.....
to be fliii.......
to be young......
to be healthy.......
to be ALIVE.....
to be breathing.......
to be pretty.......
to have family that love and care about me......
to have the BEST friends in the world.....
to have my MOM still living......
to have had a father like mine(RIP)......
just to be ME..........

I guess Im in a point in my life where Im appreciating life even more then usual, since this a new year and I broke up with the person that I loved so much, who I thought he was there for me. Now that we have broken up I have found myself again. Yes I did say again. Guys and that commitment just takes up too much of my time. I don't know if I would do that anytime soon. But, I will not say never again. That was a lesson learned, no regrets at all.

So thankful for one of my best friend Yvee.... She was there when everything took place and was there by my side when I needed that person to vent to and should to cry on. I just want to say girl no matter how far we are apart, and even when you do deploy...... I will always luv you and be there for you no matter what
happens. Lovee you chica!

So thankful for my other bestie K. Jones..... She has truly been there as well. she will tell e how it is. If im doing something that is stupid and I should not be doing it, she would basically put me back in my place. Yea she would. She will keep it real with me and tell me whats on her mind even if it does hurt my feelings. LOL... funny thing is, when my (ex)bf was in jail I was gonna get his name on me. I was drunk and obviously not in my right state of mind. I said I would NEVER get any guy name tatted on me. K.Jones said if you get his name I will..... ( can't say) but I was like f you im doing it. But I ended up not going through with it and got something else. She just understands where Im coming from all the time. Loveee ya chica!

So thankful for my third bestie Joy..... Joy and I have been friends since kindergarten. we have grown up together and became the wonderful women we are today. She is very outgoing and will get along just about anybody. She has her own style and is very focus and straight forward of what she wants out of life. Especially when it comes to guys. She has this thing when when meets a guy, she asks, "Do you have a 401k or a Roth401"? I find it funny. But hey thats how she is... and she is NOT a gold digger.LOL! No matter what I lovee ya chica!

I consider all these three to be my sisters and I lovee them dearly. No matter what.

I know yall like this girl is trippn, but im not just want them to know I will always be there and I expect the same.

We're just like the cast from Sex In The City....LOL!

NEW year NEW me

Well I know that I haven't blogged in a while but have so much to say....
Well, I started my NY off by breaking up with my bf. LOL... let, me tell you how it went down.....
Ok, so I just moved into my new apt on 12/31/08. My best friend and her bf came down to bring in the NY with me. So we all decided to go out and my (ex)bf brought along his homeboy.....
Ok so we getting dressed to go out and my (ex)bf started trippn about something that really didn't make any sense. So we are in the car riding downtown and he start saying a bunch of bs in my ear disrespecting me and his homeboy on the other side of my laughing(I'm sitting in between them in the back seat). So we get downtown and park and stand in a line for a club and his friend discovered that he had to pee. So he went to go handle his business, and while he was gone we discovered that we have to have tickets to enter into that club which line we were standing in for 20min. So.... we decided to go to another club, but his friend was not back yet, so my bestie and her bf walked off and I stayed with my (ex)bf until his friend came back. Well, when we seen him we thought he was behind us walking apparently he wasn't, so when we got to the corner he was not there. So my (ex)bf went back to get him and that's when we walked to the car and left him and his friend downtown....

My thing is don't talk crap to me and think everything is ok. Nope, it ain't go fly by me. I feel as though he deserved what he got, no his friend didn't but at the same time at least I didn't leave him down there by himself. His friend was just at the wrong place at the wrong time.....

After a while I felt bad but then I got over it. Just thinking about all this stuff he put the through for a whole year of our relationship.

It feels good to be SINGLE AGAIN!!!!

Stress free.....

NY

Ok... so this weekend I have been so freakn stressed out.... BUMMER...... any whoooo. I can't wait until 2008 is over, I am so ready for a new year to come and begin. In 2008 I can honestly say that I have been on an Emotional Rollercoaster. **** tear**** But hey, life is about living and learning. You learn from your mistakes and grow from them. 2008 was a challenge as far as dealing with the death of my father in 10/2007. Still haven't gotten over that....
But thats life i just have to accept the fact and move on with my life.
I am so gratefull that I have lived to see another year, well hopefully. Im just mad that I have to work til 10pm on NYE... *sigh*. :~(. I want to bring in the NY at a club this yr and drunk as a skunk.....LOL!!! I can't wait!

"HOLLAAAAAAAA!!!!!" -Frankie

Quote of the day.....

Attempt the impossible in order to improve your work.

"Yes We Can"

Well today has came and is almost gone, today was an interesting day. What else is there to say?
Im just so stressed today; I dont understand guys at times. They say they want a faithfull female and everything that come along with her but really, they dont....
They would rather go out there and mess with these ol' trif females who hasn't done nothing for them. I just dont understand at all.....? I have stood my ground and done what I needed to do that was to be done, but i'll be damn if im gonna kiss somebodies butt.....LOL
Yep, thats where you are wrong. Man, I guess right now Im just venting to you guys. I have so much on my mind and so much to do in such little time.
But guess what I have faith. Never give up on faith and it WILL be okay.

**Smooches **

Quote of the day.....

To follow without halt, one aim; there is the secret of success.
And success? What is it? I do not find it in the applause of the
theatre. It lies rather in the satisfaction of accomplishment.

Quote of the day.....

Don't think, feel!

It is like a finger pointing away

to the moon.

Don't concentrate on the

finger or you

Will miss all that

heavenly glory.

?????

Well this is my second post so far and I'm not being as committed as i said I would be.
Anywho...., well I'm so darn happy that I am about to move into my own place soon again. OMG... staying at home is a beast!!! I'm mean its not that bad but when you're use to staying on your own for 5yrs and moved back due to a family emergency for a yr.....SIGH......
So I'm moving in my apartment really soon and my BF is wanting to come stay with me...? Now when he casually invited himself to staying with me, I'm like.... ARE YOU SERIOUS???! (shocked)
#1. How you just go invite yourself somewhere to live.
#2. I hope he know we either going half on everything or he paying
75% and I pay the other 25% of everything.
#3. I don't remember asking you if you wanted to move in together.
Just because we have been together for almost a yr and your lease is up on your apartment does not mean..."HEY, lets move together!" Guys these days just think they can just come lay up on a female and not contribute to anything. Hummmm.... not over here. I don't want to sound mean and say NO you can not move in with me but at the same time I'm not ready to look at the same person everyday and taken upon that load of basiclly making sure that person is straight . You know.....***SIGH***.

What should I do? Because I'm pretty sure he is not gonna understand where I'm coming from and how I feel about it.....

*****SIGH*****

Getting Started........

Well, I'm new to this blog thing. I'm pretty sure once I get use to it, I will be on here more frequently. **SIGH**